Looking Forward to the Little Joys in Life

When we were writing our adoption profile to present to birth parents at our agency, I kept finding myself imagining the beautiful moments our family has to look forward to. Of course I have imagined about a million times what it might feel like meeting our child for the first time and those first few steps through the door at home on that incredible day (whenever it may be). What I find myself thinking about most, though, are those little moments in time that I may have taken advantage of if we had not experienced this journey of waiting.

I can't wait for the moment that we feel like we can let down our guard and choose a name. For years before we even got married, we talked about baby names (even if they were Bert and Ernie for our future twins). But it's not so easy talking about names, when you have no idea when or if that day is going to come when you have a child to give that name to. So naming this baby... can't wait for it! 

I look forward to seeing the big cheesy grin I know Dan will have on his face the first time he dresses our baby up in some ridiculous outfit, the hilarious comments he will surely have about dirty diapers, and of course that look of pride I know he will have when he introduces our son or daughter to our families. I can't wait for our first Sunday mass together as a family of three, holding our baby close and thanking God for our incredible blessing! Crazy as it may sound, I can't wait to wake up in the middle of the night those first few times (I'm not completely nuts- I know that after the first couple nights I'll regret ever thinking that!) I look forward to chasing little feet across the house, holding little hands on walks around the block, and dancing around the living room. I can't wait to be woken up by a little one jumping into bed with us on a lazy Saturday morning, ready to get the day started. Coming from someone who LOVES to sleep in, I look forward to the day that I no longer have the option.

I could list about a million things I think about every day, but I think you get the picture. As difficult as this wait is sometimes (ahem, most of the time), I have been blessed. God blessed us with this wait. He has prepared my heart and increased my faith. I am ready to soak up every last little moment, BUT I have also realized that I need to do the same now. It's that second part that I struggle with all the time. I want to keep fast forwarding to that moment when our two becomes three, but today is important too. There's a reason that we are waiting. So I better not let this time just pass me by. In the end, God has a beautiful little one for us. When? I don't know. But I'm ready for that incredible moment!

(I promise not to be so mushy on every post, but a girl has to dream a little. Some people deal with stress with chocolate, others with exercise... I daydream)